Angle In my eyes June 4,2010

There is only one angle that god gave me and that is jack furnari that watches over me every day. When i was going though the worst hardship that i though i could never make it though i wish on a star for a man that could change me and make me a better person inside and out. Three months later i got jack. God only knows why that things happen the way that they do and that why people have to go though so much before they get a gimps of light. God knows out life before we do so we need to take one day at a time.

Monday May 24,2010

At around 2.00 a.m. last night i had the worst attack that i had in a long time. 

I did not know who I was and i tried to kill myself again my using my nails again to cut my arm. I haven not have sequel for two days and you can say that it made me a little crazy. I did not know where I was , who jack was, who I was or anything, for a least one hour. Final when i came to after some medication to felt so bad for what i did now i locked in the live room all day till my great man comes home for safe keeping. I very proud of me and my husband that we got through an attack without any help and I am here today to tell everyone that if you have a husband like mine you are the lucky person in the whole entire world, and that he is the best person that God every made for me!

may 16,2010

today i am most stressed out that i have been every before. I am trying to be all i can be in school so i never have a failing grade again. I been working so hard on my papers that leaves me little time for me to think. I was wondering why i feel like i do. Bipolar sucks and if a get a little stressed out my husband thinks i need to pop another pill, than i do and im still stressed out.


Question of the day

Stressed out or not stressed out what right?

Saturday May 8, 2010

Today was harder since i did a lot of things and my mind was racing so much i had to get a lot of things done that i could not even sit down for a few minutes. The reason their is no you-tube tonight is my hair is all in braids for tomorrow and i look silly. I made some great presidents for the mom's out their and my Aunt since it her birthday! Well with my mind racing today I did something new today and i made a heart with yarn. I thought it would be hard but it was so easy. I think that it going to be a book night and that i love my husband.

Questions of the day!!!!!!!

When your mind is racing how do you calm down to relax?

May 7,2010

Today was a good day for me. I did forget to take my medication that makes me feel human like a regular person but I was going homework and I actually contracted on it where I did not have to ask for help. I have not felt this way in months. Sorry put no you-tube posting this week due to I am starting two new classes and it taking most of my time.I have been going great reading again at night Twilight is helping be calm down but i am still waking up a lot during the middle of the night. 


 Questions of the day!!!!!

Is anyone out there , is anyone reading this, does anyone know that i mean?

thursday may 6 ,2010

no sleep every airy but sad all at the same time. confused with school,love and life.



question of the day
Is no sleep make your day harder?

Wednesday May 5, 2010

Sorry that i haven not  blogged in a while but I been having problem between doctors and school. Just knowing that each day just waking up is hard and I never know what going to happen is the hardest thing in the world. This blog is suppose to help me express my emotions and if you want please post what you think and i respond back if i see it. 
                                                                  Question of the day
                             I know that i have a disorder but it is going to run my while like?