Depression

This week has been a hard one I want to say congratz to my sister Tara for getting pregnant. I know that I love her and is so happy but why can I not have a baby? I want to have a baby and we are trying but I not ever going to have a baby without help and I can not seen not to cry every time i hear that someone else is pregnant. It not that I am not happy for that person is just a hit into my heart that I can not get what they have and they do not have to go though what I am going though. I know that i can pray as much as I can but the fact is that I am different and I can not believe that I am having so many problems. Knowing that I can not have a baby makes me cry due to that we are trying and I can not have a baby. I know that I love my husband and that since I am bio-polar it causes it hard problems with the baby issue and having my medication going wrong.