Better Day

today was a better day. Jack went to the doctors and found out that he has to be out for another week. This is a week that from hell. Jack been home keep me distracted and now i lost my routine.Been having days that I wish that just would go away. I not being getting any sleep cause i been having night terrors.  I wonder why i been not know that this would ever stop. I know that i glad that Im alive but my brain is killing me. I know that we cant keep contact on our brain it has a mind of its own but i would like to keep knowledge that I will not kill myself this week. It so hard and i been though my medical can not work. What is wrong with my life and I can not believe that something like this can happen to be since all that I can think of.